I Had a Bit of a Problem Today....

I had a bit of a problem today with a runaway anxiety attack. From the time that I got on the bus at Markham Road heading downtown until I unlocked the door coming home I was desperately afraid that I had left Sarahjean alone in the hallway, roaming the floor all by herself. Even though I knew logically that this was not what was happening, I still had the fear and the shots of anguish that go with it. I tried to lose the feeling when I got to the clubhouse, but the absence of my usual hangout buddy made it difficult to find something to do which made my headstrong retardation even worse. When I opened the door when I got home my heart sank because Sarah wasn't right there to greet me... or so I thought. She was actually asleep in the cupboard beside the entryway, happy as any comfortable puppy could be. I'm not sure what to credit this attack to...maybe it's my body adjusting to the new meds, or maybe I just had a bad day. Everybody does once in a while. But I don't want to feel like that again in the near future....or ever.