Acadian Bipolar Guy

April 19, 2012

Go

I slept in til eleven thirty today. It's been eons since that has happened. I miss Yaz.

April 14, 2012

So if it's between my health and keeping Yaz, which one should it be? If the guy next door gets any louder, I'm not going to be able to sleep at all. I'm not sure which mental illness he is afflicted with, but one of them could definitely be Tourette's Syndrome. The guy screams for no apparent reason...right out of the blue, all the time. And he fancies himself somewhat of a vocalist....or at least that's what he would lead one to believe with the way he goes on. I'm not sure how much longer I can take it. Calling security does absolutely no good whatsoever.

April 04, 2012

One Day At A Time Sweet Jesus

So the noise volume at the apartment hasn't been that bad lately. I'm not sure where the guy next door has been, but I do know that it's much easier to have him there when his girlfriend is around. I'm still going to Progress Place and I'm holding out for housing through them...besides I can't really afford to move from where I'm at unless I'm moving to another subsidized apartment. I'm losing weight... at least according to the scale. I've gone from 278 to 254 so far and I hope to keep it going down until I reach 200...hopefully by then I'll be in a new place downtown and I'll be close to the village so maybe I can hook myself a boyfriend...but that's not the most important thing...my health is the most important thing.. my health and the health of my kids Sarah and Yaz.

March 30, 2012

Anxiety and Depression cont'd

I feel like getting sick. I've been in a shitty mood all day and coming home to this place doesn't make it any better. The guy next store was singing at the top of his lungs today... there's fuck all I can do about it, and it's obvious that he's making his mark by making my life miserable. I can't believe that, after all I've gone through in my life, that I had to have this type of challenge put in front of me. How do I win? I can't. There is no way to win with people like that and I'm stuck here holding a bag of shit while he gets away with murder. If I had have the balls I'd **** *** ******* *****. I'm not stupid enough to put that in print.

March 29, 2012

Anxiety and Depression...

How stupid am I? I just checked my scripts and I've missed seven days of my main drug..... how stupid am I? Pretty fucking stupid. I started today out in a crappy mood and it carried on through to around three o'clock. The ride home was ok, and the fucking idiot who lives next door isn't home yet so it's quiet and barable. I want to get off this ride, but it seems as though I'm committed to it for the remainder of my days. I'm working out the fact that I have to remain in this apartment until something comes up at progress place but I have no idea how I'm going to deal with the summer and the patio....the guy next door is going to make life totally unbarable I'm sure of that. All I can really do is deal with it, and pray to God that something comes up for housing soon.

Abilify Approved For Use In Treating Bipolar 1

February 17, 2011, Princeton, NJ- Bristol-Myers Squibb Co. and Otsuka Pharmaceutical Co. announced the U.S. Food and Drug Administration has approved the newer generation antipsychotic Abilify (aripiprazole) as an add-on treatment to the mood stabilizers lithium or valproate for the maintenance treatment of bipolar 1.
Abilify was previously approved as an add-on for the acute treatment of manic or mixed episodes associated with bipolar 1 disorder. It is also approved as a stand-alone therapy for both acute and maintenance treatment for bipolar 1.
-BP Canada

Did I Say That?

I'm still kind of afraid of what people might think of me should they find out my secret via my new blog. Part of its' purpose is to help me deal with being myself - which unfortunately also leads to me exposing myself. I'm trying to understand why different is so bad. Just because my moods are different than yours should not make either of us outcasts. People need to accept that "normal", that happy place of mediocrity and safety just doesn't exist. Maybe in the past, but not anymore. Get over it. I'm trying to.

Gotta Get Groceries?

STAY OUT OF THE CORNER STORES!!!! That's exactly what I'm screaming to myself as I walk in and out of my local corner store. The goods are sooo expensive, but teasingly easy to get. In and out is what attracts me, and I don't have to talk to anyone to any great extent. It's so temtping, but so draining on the wallet to let them suck the money right out of you.

Best Deal this Week:

Food Basics:

Maple Leaf Ham: $1.99 lb
Nestle Parlour Ice Cream: $1.88
McCain Rising Crust Pizza: $3.98
Maple Lodge Hot Dogs: $1.54

Maybe not the most nutritious picks, but when you're trying to stretch a small amount over a long period of time, every little bit helps.

Downtown Toronto YMCA

I'm not sure what the going rate is right now, but I do know the Downtown YMCA offers discounted memberships to those who can prove they have a low income as a result of a medical disability. There could be other arrangements but this is the only one that I know of based on personal experience. The Y is suited for people with mobility issues as well. It can get pretty busy and is ususally less crowded during mid-day. The facilities are like new and always impeccably clean. Call the Y to check out your possibilities - exercise (particularly weight training) is especially good for people with mood disorders, but beneficial for anyone wanting to spruce up for spring or get into a year-round routine.

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