Anxiety and Depression...

How stupid am I? I just checked my scripts and I've missed seven days of my main drug..... how stupid am I? Pretty fucking stupid. I started today out in a crappy mood and it carried on through to around three o'clock. The ride home was ok, and the fucking idiot who lives next door isn't home yet so it's quiet and barable. I want to get off this ride, but it seems as though I'm committed to it for the remainder of my days. I'm working out the fact that I have to remain in this apartment until something comes up at progress place but I have no idea how I'm going to deal with the summer and the patio....the guy next door is going to make life totally unbarable I'm sure of that. All I can really do is deal with it, and pray to God that something comes up for housing soon.