June 24

Last Friday was my birthday, one of the best I have had in a very long time. I'm seeing this guy who treats me like a king and that's exactly what he did on June 24. He took me out, gave me a really cool and thoughtful gift and stayed over so we could celebrate like adults do.

It's hard to believe, but I'm actually beginning to enjoy spooning in bed and listening to the quiet silence of my lover's heartbeat thud into  the night. It felt wonderful, and I would love to do it all again exactly the way we did it then. I will draw inspiration from that one time, believing it will happen again exactly as it did. It was good.

There is a myriad of things going on in my life, yet everything seems to be standing still. Doctors, vets, people all around me but I'm still feeling somewhat isolated and alone. Things will change. I have to will them to so it will happen. That's the only way to change the path. Go out and dig it. Dig long and dig hard.