Acadian Bipolar Guy

Another Random Entry

There are things that I think that I would never say out loud. My mother told me when I was  still fairly young some of the best advice; you don't always have to do what you think is on your mind. I'm sure somehow that translates into some type of literary gem but I'm still trying to figure it out. See, at the very least of everyhing in the world, I'm not very bright. Based on the moronic things that I did in the past I think it's' only
appropriate to believe that my time is coming real soon. How am I going to go? I have no idea. I do know it won't be at my own hands. I'm way too much of a coward to off myself. Or at least I have been up until now. I've daydreamed of hurting myself with a knife, but I never really see how that one ends. I gave the hot burner a pretty good stair down last week. I was completely out of my mind. Suicidal, crying, tallking to myself and pacing... I was pretty fucked up.